Weird, I thought, that they'd both burned out at the same time.
Then I went into the kitchen, and came to the realization that the power was out. No pc. No writing (handwriting is slow and I hate transcribing to the pc later).
Outline is finally done, in that I now know all the major plot points, and how they follow each other linearly. I think. I should dive back into writing it, now that I have a better handle on it. I am glad I've been reading lots of Jim Butcher lately; it was a bit like an epiphany to suddenly realize that sex didn't have to be the lowest common denominator; 'hey, this isn't a LKH-esque novel I'm writing!'. At least, not a more recent LKH novel.
and no, I'm not saying I'm stealing plot, lol. I'm stealing that old action-action-action flow for the novel. I admit I had to keep reminding myself to find solutions for the situations I'd put my MC into that didn't use sex as the solution; I'm way too obsessed with getting Lick of Frost for xmas, what can I say...
the girls are watching the Best Christmas Movie Ever (here's a clue: "Light the lamp, not the rat!")
- Reading:Mortal Dangery by Eileen Wilks
I guess it comes down to whether or not I want to, and whether or not it detracts from the story. Or maybe I'll do without in the rough draft, and add sex scenes in later, if I think it needs more oomph.
I generally have a harder time writing romantic scenes than sexual ones. Probably because since my seperation I haven't been in a relationship, so I'm still sensitive that way; sex can be just flesh, but love... that's painful. I'm not sure there's a relationship equivalent to masturbation.
I've decided to go back to doing an actual outline for this novel. Scary. I was trying to write it adlib, and finding stuff being left out or forgotten. so back to outlining it is!
Lemme think... now that the tree and mantel are decorated, we've kinda given up on everything else, sigh. which is just as well. We moved here in September, and we still have tons of boxes everywhere. So I guess I know what I'll be doing when procrastinating from writing! (though today I cleaned instead of unpacking OR writing).
Oh, and I watched Next, it was entertaining though not a great movie. I just find Nicolas Cage very creepy (and not in a good Tim Burton kind of way).
- Mood:
drained
to recap, I was stupid on Friday night (like, half an hour after I posted on LJ) and sprained my ankle. It's much better now, but dam it hurt! The worst part was that the ice pack wasn't in the freezer, so I ended up with frozen zuchini loaf on my ankle instead. On the plus side, the loaf was very yummy!
It threw off my plans for the weekend; couldn't stand on a ladder to string up the outside lights, but my mom and I did manage to get the tree up today and my kids helped to decorate it. The stockings are hung on the mantel over the gas fireplace, and it's finally starting to look xmasy here (and yeah, even in my head, I say xmas).
It also threw off my plans for writing; couldn't sit at the pc and write when my ankle needed to be up.
In a complete segue, I adore iLike on Facebook; I use the Music Challenge to listen to music, so I can find new bands to listen to. My prezzie list is ever expanding!
- Mood:
silly - Reading:Grave Peril by Jim Butcher
Oooh, sitting here typing this is useful! I just realized what my mc's name should be. Not what I thought it was going to be, either.... sigh.
- Mood:
uncomfortable
However, in the middle of nano another story came to me, so I'm going to try and start working on that one, and see if I can maybe switch off between the two.
Here's hoping!
- Mood:
contemplative
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mightyjalapeno will be envious to know I had my first beanaccino of the summer at noon today. Fortunately, most of caffeine jitters have worn off and I can function normally. For those not privileged enough to live around here, a beanaccino is the liquid equivalent of a couple handfuls of chocolate covered espresso beans dipped in real whipped cream. Mmmmmmm. Jittery goodness. And while high on the coffee buzz, I worked out the barest outline for my novel, which is a big step forward. It gave me the opportunity to see that certain events I'd originally placed near the beginning actually worked far better towards the end instead, lol. The plus side of outlines!
Anyway, I have to go offline, since the house needs to cleaned up for a showing in 3 hours, which means moi must work her butt off in hopes of finally getting an offer (we haven't even had any pathetically low ones yet, which is embarrassing).
I've been plotting out my next novel, but another storyline (very different from the one I've been working on) keeps poking itself into my forebrain. Now I'm not sure which one to start writing.
Plot A: urban fantasy, female main chr, lots of action, maybe some romance.
Plot B: regency-esque historical fantasy (not set in the real world, however), main chr female soldier having to adjust to a male dominated society (and vice versa).
I've had plot b in my head longer, but I know more of the overall plot of plot a. Hmmmm. I don't know that I could write two at once...
I'm going to record my podcast this weekend; Bob's taking the girls up to visit with his mom while he and his dad redo the service at the local grocery store. I admit I had a tiny niggle of worry over it; what newly single mom doesn't worry about kidnapping? But I looked deep into myself, and I know it's just an irrational fear, brought on by general anxiety.
He isn't an asshole, just... well, no longer in love. Our separation so far has been almost completely amicable; I'm just the type to worry needlessly. Really. It's a significant part of my anxiety issues.
Anyway, I'll see about recording what will probably turn into a fairly long show, a combo of catching up on gossip, introducing topics, playing music, etc. All things being equal, I hope to have something reasonable (and without too much cussing, lol) and uploaded by wednesday night. Fingers crossed!
And on a final note, I'm debating with the idea of writing a short story each month, to keep my hand it. It's really not enough to just do NaNo each year, then do nothing the rest of the time. Though I should really be editing one of those... sigh.
- Reading:The Cowboy and The Vampire
Of course, I also promised myself I'd edit last years nano novel, which is sitting in a box on a shelf (I printed it up at Staples, lol) loose leaf sheets waiting to be read. I haven't even looked at it in a year. Now I'm nervous....
Edit: whoops, I mean 2005's nano novel. I didn't even think about what I wrote, lol. the 2006 novel isn't worth editing.
Spacecast, our scifi channel up here in canada, has been showing nothing but Star Trek for the past couple of days; yesterday was the Trek Mas Movie Marathon, and today has been viewer's choice top fav Enterprise episodes.
It's a bit like chocolate; some is good, a lot is heavenly, but an overdose just gives you a headache.
In RL, I talked to my dad last night, doing the xmas phone call thing. I finally told him about me and Bob; he was surprisingly supportive and understanding. Of course, he's been married three times, so I guess he would. We're not close, but... it was heartening to hear such kind things, both aimed at me and Bob. One of my step-sisters is also getting a seperation from her husband, though her situation is really bad; her ex was mean, cruel and sometimes violent, and taught their son to treat her the same way. The boy is now in the dad's custody; step-sis just couldn't handle the way her son would scream and attack her whenever they were together. It's really sad. I'm glad that my kids love us both, and that, with a civil separation, Bob and I will not end up thoroughly hating each other.
I discussed it with almost-ex, and he agreed that going to a mediator (rather than thru lawyers) to figure things out would be best; if we can keep the tone calm, maybe we can get through this without as much anger and pain. I don't know, but I sure hope so!
On the writing front, I'm stil procrastinating, but I have got something in mind, so I'll just have to take a deep breath and plunge in.
As for the podcast, I'm thinking either to start recording this week or next; fingers crossed!
My writing muse is back. In the past week, I've come up with three new story ideas; I haven't done anything with them yet, of course, but they're there. Here's a summary, but it's hardly a full description; I do that , I might as well write the dam story, right? 1. a gate between worlds exists in the linen closet. 2. intergalactic courier stuck on interdicted world 3. shit, I forgot the last one; oh well... I got tonnes!
- Mood:
creative
marriage, well, we're working on it. at least he's willing to try. we're going to see a marriage counsellor next wednesday. fingers are crossed. I've also been reading a zillion books on the subject, so some of that can help; tips are good, if they work.
bob rented a couple of video games, which has been amazingly good for both of us. we get to sit down together, and play. Or we get to enjoy the other's successes. It's helped ease things immensely.
I'm also writing again. lol, erotica, which is fitting, since I'm not getting sex anymore. gotta have something. I'm going to submerge my lust into my writing, and hopefully it'll be good, lol. Plus, if I can actually get a sex scene written, I can email the lot of it to bob, see if it's any good.
otherwise, I'm teetering between hope and despair, which seems pretty normal for the situation. I'm hoping we can fix this; if he's truly willing to work this out, we can. that's the biggie, and we have no answers for that yet. it's driving me up the wall, but I'm doing the best I can to be more hopeful and calm, cuz going crazy on his butt won't work, lol.
- Mood:
hopeful - Reading:some romance novel
got my first paycheck yesterday. woohoo! It's only been... eleven or twelve years since the last time, no biggie. lol. Of course, I'd be even more ecstatic if it were a huge amount, but hey, not bad for a job that regularily gives me 4-5 hours a week. I really have to apply at the library. Now that's a dream job...
i'm thinking more and more about nanowrimo, it's an addiction like no other. I'm debating over writing another space opera, an urban fantasy or a retold fairy tale. Not really sure yet.
I need to get our digital camera fixed. the battery casing cracked, which interrupts the power flow; now I just hope someone will order a replacement part.
Right now I'm listening to podsafe music, trying to pick out the song for next show; I was thinking something hard and fast... after all, we are doing another sex show, lol.
- Mood:
geeky - Reading:Libertine takes a lover - Parlor Steps
It will make the editing process a tad shorter though, which is always good. Not having to fit in music will take at least twenty minutes off of the time. now on to personal journal stuff
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Well, that's pretty much it for now. I really have to try and get back to journalling in the morning. It's easier, somehow. Oh! and I'm writing again. As in, story stuff, not journalizing. Another interesting dream leading to a story, my standard method, lol.
- Mood:
pleased
