I don't blame my youngest for being slumped in a chair this morning; we're all tired, I think.  Instead of easily sliding into sleep last night, I was busy trying to work out a story scene in my head; can't sleep when that happens.

I am feeling a little pissed off, though, which helps to wake a person up.  In a local (provincial, really) pagan email list I help mod, an acquaintance of mine has come forward and is complaining about the shit end of the stick he was handed by a provinical group he'd belonged to.  Now, this group was annoying from the getgo, I know the local members and don't like them.  He, on the other hand, saw them as harmless.  Hah, now he's finding out they aren't.  Still, I'm torn.  I want to post on the issue, but as a mod, I shouldn't be stirring the pot.  

Mainly, what's pissing me off, is that the guy who's been... blacklisted and slandered by this group, is trying to bring his situation to the attention of the pagan public, and people are complaining because they don't want to be involved.  WTF?  Why do people join a list and then expect not to be involved? 
 

gah, I can't believe how stupid I was earlier!  And because I intend to swear intensely, I'll just put it all behind a cut.

I've got a post I want to write, full of my angst, and personal crap, but ever since I got that unpleasant anonymous post, I'm worried about saying anything related to my almost ex, in case it gets back to him. Sigh. paranoia wins. So from now on, all posts I feel are sensitive, get friends locked. Anyone out there who isn't a friend yet, and is actually interested in how my so called life is going, can as me to friend them. Ciao.

you know, people like this asshole really piss me off.  I'm pagan, but in no way am I delusional like this guy.  I kind of agree that he shouldn't be judged by christian ideology, however, at no point have I heard of asatru saying it's okay to murder someone!!!

but it's a real kick in the pants to see how nice Sam's new place is.  cozy.  warm.  homey.  our place, which we bought and moved into two years ago, still has boxes in every room.  Walls still need paint, and most of our decorative stuff is in boxes in the basement.  And the basement... wow, talk about box overload.

okay, why are there so many assholes in the world? I was surfing the Urban Dictionary, and came across 'breeders'. I can't help being straight, trust me, I've tried, and while I haven't dated every type of girl, I just can't get into it; it's kind of depressing, since I've met so many more women who wanted to have a relationship with me than men.  And yes, I have kids (two).  One for each of us, as it were.  And while there's a sentimental part of me that wants to have more, I am so not going to do it.  Kids are a lot of work, a lot of pain, and definately can be annoying.  It's not something fore everyone, and I refuse to encourage couples to have any; it's a choice that's not mine to make.

I can see getting mad at people who have too many kids and don't take care of them (as in the #1 definition of breeder, as opposed to breeder_s_).  I get mad at those people, and wish we had to pass mental health exams or something, maybe an IQ test, before anyone was allowed to have babies.   And I know how angry and upsetting being insulted/derided can be (i'm a pagan, socialist feminist and have been attacked verbally as well as physically for not hiding my existance).   But I still can't see how calling an entire group a name is really a mature way of responding to insults.  it's letting one goup of assholes turn your group into assholes as well.

and it also completely ignores the homosexual couples who want and either adopt or bear children of their own.  Does that mean certain lesbians and gays are 'breeders' too?  It's stupid.  Fear and anger are always a nasty mix, and it makes me angry and hurt to know that in spite of all the support I have for my gay and bi friends, I get the automatic 'married with kids?  must be a vanilla prude who hates everything!'  Okay, it doesn't hapeen every day, but when I come across this kind of crap, I just want to scream.

why pick on all straight people; ?  it doesn't make sense, but then, like I said right at the beginning of this rant, there are assholes in this world; I just don't like being reminded of them!