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I'm going to record my podcast this weekend; Bob's taking the girls up to visit with his mom while he and his dad redo the service at the local grocery store. I admit I had a tiny niggle of worry over it; what newly single mom doesn't worry about kidnapping? But I looked deep into myself, and I know it's just an irrational fear, brought on by general anxiety.
He isn't an asshole, just... well, no longer in love. Our separation so far has been almost completely amicable; I'm just the type to worry needlessly. Really. It's a significant part of my anxiety issues.
Anyway, I'll see about recording what will probably turn into a fairly long show, a combo of catching up on gossip, introducing topics, playing music, etc. All things being equal, I hope to have something reasonable (and without too much cussing, lol) and uploaded by wednesday night. Fingers crossed!
And on a final note, I'm debating with the idea of writing a short story each month, to keep my hand it. It's really not enough to just do NaNo each year, then do nothing the rest of the time. Though I should really be editing one of those... sigh.
- Reading:The Cowboy and The Vampire
Of course, I also promised myself I'd edit last years nano novel, which is sitting in a box on a shelf (I printed it up at Staples, lol) loose leaf sheets waiting to be read. I haven't even looked at it in a year. Now I'm nervous....
Edit: whoops, I mean 2005's nano novel. I didn't even think about what I wrote, lol. the 2006 novel isn't worth editing.
Spacecast, our scifi channel up here in canada, has been showing nothing but Star Trek for the past couple of days; yesterday was the Trek Mas Movie Marathon, and today has been viewer's choice top fav Enterprise episodes.
It's a bit like chocolate; some is good, a lot is heavenly, but an overdose just gives you a headache.
In RL, I talked to my dad last night, doing the xmas phone call thing. I finally told him about me and Bob; he was surprisingly supportive and understanding. Of course, he's been married three times, so I guess he would. We're not close, but... it was heartening to hear such kind things, both aimed at me and Bob. One of my step-sisters is also getting a seperation from her husband, though her situation is really bad; her ex was mean, cruel and sometimes violent, and taught their son to treat her the same way. The boy is now in the dad's custody; step-sis just couldn't handle the way her son would scream and attack her whenever they were together. It's really sad. I'm glad that my kids love us both, and that, with a civil separation, Bob and I will not end up thoroughly hating each other.
I discussed it with almost-ex, and he agreed that going to a mediator (rather than thru lawyers) to figure things out would be best; if we can keep the tone calm, maybe we can get through this without as much anger and pain. I don't know, but I sure hope so!
On the writing front, I'm stil procrastinating, but I have got something in mind, so I'll just have to take a deep breath and plunge in.
As for the podcast, I'm thinking either to start recording this week or next; fingers crossed!
on the plus side, we're doing a podcast sometime this week.
- Mood:
pleased - Reading:nothing, dam it
got my first paycheck yesterday. woohoo! It's only been... eleven or twelve years since the last time, no biggie. lol. Of course, I'd be even more ecstatic if it were a huge amount, but hey, not bad for a job that regularily gives me 4-5 hours a week. I really have to apply at the library. Now that's a dream job...
i'm thinking more and more about nanowrimo, it's an addiction like no other. I'm debating over writing another space opera, an urban fantasy or a retold fairy tale. Not really sure yet.
I need to get our digital camera fixed. the battery casing cracked, which interrupts the power flow; now I just hope someone will order a replacement part.
Right now I'm listening to podsafe music, trying to pick out the song for next show; I was thinking something hard and fast... after all, we are doing another sex show, lol.
- Mood:
geeky - Reading:Libertine takes a lover - Parlor Steps
thankfully, my mother has this week off; it gives me a bit of free time. yippee!!!
- Mood:
drained
Sam gets back in three days. I can't wait!!!
- Mood:
content
The podcast needed a link to certain discworld quotes, which I couldn't narrow down to one page, sooo, I'm pasting 'em here, and using this as a link for the show notes. Ignore if you don't like PTerry.
From Witches Abroad:
[...] what was supposed to be so special about a full moon? It was only a big circle of light. And the dark of the moon was only darkness.
But half-way between the two, when the moon was between the worlds of light and dark, when even the moon lived on the edge... maybe then a witch could believe in the moon.
[p. 269] http://www.extenuation.net/disc/quoteswa.h
From Carpe Jugulum:
...a half moon, She distrusted a moon like that. A full moon could only wane, a new moon could only wax, but a half moon, balancing so precariously between light and dark ... well, it could do anything. http://home.wxs.nl/~jgmetsel/quotes.html#C
- Mood:
busy
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Tomorrow morning my beloved is off to play paintball while I do the janitor thing for a few hours. At least this weekend it's only four hours; last two weekends it was eight. Then I'm free! Plus, I'll actually have the energy to go to the gym on sunday, which will definitely make me feel better, more accomplished.
I gotta get out of this rut.
- Location:new couch
- Mood:
depressed
now i'm tired, and ready to relax. I'm going to find and download some basic pagan chants for Sam. She's never really listened to them, and wants to be ready for the festival we're going to in august. this weekend we'll buy some more discs, and I'll burn on it all the podcasts for her too; if there's room, I'll add the chants, if not, I'll burn a second disc!!!
I'm not really a chant person, neither is she, but knowing the words helps add a sense of belonging, ya know?
- Mood:
optimistic - Reading:Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day
It will make the editing process a tad shorter though, which is always good. Not having to fit in music will take at least twenty minutes off of the time. now on to personal journal stuff
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Well, that's pretty much it for now. I really have to try and get back to journalling in the morning. It's easier, somehow. Oh! and I'm writing again. As in, story stuff, not journalizing. Another interesting dream leading to a story, my standard method, lol.
- Mood: pleased
not that there's all that much to talk about, especially as tired as I am. had a headache all day, which was only temporarily dulled by tylenol and coffee. finally went to the gym, after 10 days being awol. lucky me. and since both Sam and I wanted to do individual rituals tomorrow night, we recorded the podcast tonight. it was fun, but long! we managed to gabble for a good hour, and I'll be lucky to do more than edit five minutes out; about what we need for a song, lol. so it'll be a long one, but it was so interesting and fun, it was hard not to just keep talking even longer.
and this time I didn't mention anybody from LJ, lol. so no worries there. and we did discuss sex magick. and pagan sexual ethics. and polyamory. and bob even contributed his ten bits (it was more than two, that's for sure), though I'll have to amplify everything he said, since he insisted on staying across the room from us.
doing the show notes should be interesting....
- Mood: content
- Reading:The One by the Woodshedders
And I'm wondering if the show's getting a little stale; listening today as I cut and edited, I had to wonder if it was a worthwhile show, which just means we have to have more fun and a cool topic for next week (or rather this week, since we record much earlier than I edit, doh). Sex magick! mwahahahahahaha. plus whatever we think of to go along with that. pagan sex ethics, polyamory, you name it, we'll talk about it. probably, lol.
and if anyone can think of other interesting pagan subjects, stuff that we can chew over for half an hour, that would be awesome. some nights we just sit there for a while, babbling on about driving or going to the 7-eleven, until the next interesting, actually pagan subject arises. now do you understand why I do so much editing?
hmmmm... pagan fiction... Harry Potter counts, right?
- Mood:
accomplished
Now it's bedtime for the kiddos and a lazy evening to while away until I can think of something useful to do (like reading one of the zillions of non fiction books I have out of the library). I was going to record a podcast, but my cohost isn't feeling well (guess who I was drinking with last night, lol), and I don't want to do it without her. Hmmm, maybe I should see if Bob's up to it... nah, like that would ever happen.
Anyhone interested in recording something for a podcast aimed at eclectic and/or solitary pagans??? And then zipping it and sending it to me? Okay, so maybe it's a lot to ask... especially since I need to get something done for monday. Blergh.
I may just end up doing one on my own tonight. That'll be weird; I tend to go off on a tangent, and rant about that when I'm on my own (which I why I have a cohost!).
- Location:livingroom couch
- Mood:
groggy - Reading:batman beyond
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Bob: hon, did you do something to my computer?
Me: uh, no. why?
Bob: I can't get the headset to work.
Me: I didn't do anything.
pause while he grumbles and fiddles.
Me: did you plug the headset's mic back in?
pause
Bob: no.
- Mood: nostalgic
And we have subscribers! That totally blows my mind; people are listening to us! Oh, some are probably going to unsubscribe; heaven knows I haven't stayed subbed to all the podcasts I've tried out. But some of them might stick, and it's great to know we're not talking into the void for no reason. I'm just so bubbly today, which should make up for the fact that my youngest has struck the terrible twos with a vengeance.
- Mood:
ecstatic
