I don't blame my youngest for being slumped in a chair this morning; we're all tired, I think.  Instead of easily sliding into sleep last night, I was busy trying to work out a story scene in my head; can't sleep when that happens.

I am feeling a little pissed off, though, which helps to wake a person up.  In a local (provincial, really) pagan email list I help mod, an acquaintance of mine has come forward and is complaining about the shit end of the stick he was handed by a provinical group he'd belonged to.  Now, this group was annoying from the getgo, I know the local members and don't like them.  He, on the other hand, saw them as harmless.  Hah, now he's finding out they aren't.  Still, I'm torn.  I want to post on the issue, but as a mod, I shouldn't be stirring the pot.  

Mainly, what's pissing me off, is that the guy who's been... blacklisted and slandered by this group, is trying to bring his situation to the attention of the pagan public, and people are complaining because they don't want to be involved.  WTF?  Why do people join a list and then expect not to be involved? 
 

hah, pagans want recognition?  Witch Ordered to Refund Love Spell Fee.  Wacky, yet a form of acknowledgement too.

Okay, day one is over, no more writing till tomorrow, and yay, I blew through the daily word amount.  It was such a relief, since when I was trying to write this morning, it was totally not flowing.  I'm not a morning person and boy, was it ever showing.

And a big thanks to enkanowen for doing a word war with me and getting me to really write fast; though I'm sure I did the math wrong, but whatever the case, I'm doing good now, and have the time to write *and* think more or less at the same time.  Otherwise, I might start writing about otters, and it's all down hill from there.


Anyway, good night, and I'll sleep easier tonight, knowing I'm going to do okay this nanowrimo, rather than the blind panic that had me sleeping poorly last night.  Cheers!  Good writing vibes to all who want 'em.

One thing that's kept me steady through all of this is a new grounding and centering technique I learned at the Gathering.  Very very calming, plus it helps me to figure out what to do, better than any divination device I've ever used.  It's nice to be able to just ask a question of myself, and know the answer.  I'd used the tree meditation primarily until now, and it really didn't give me the same kind of grounding; in other words, I wasn't really grounding before.  Now that I am, it's really making a difference.  

Go figure I make such huge advances in my spirituality right at the same time my marriage is foundering.  

and ps, if anyone from the Gathering is reading this, my scabs are finally healed!  My knees are still bruised, but at least that's it.  *grin*.

I'm back!  we got back today from a wonderful pagan festival, the Gathering for Life on Earth (which is why I just say the Gathering).  There were down sides, most of which were physical (I kept hurting myself), but I met some great people, and had great conversations.  Since two of the people have websites, I'll add them here; Wiccan Web and Kundalini-teacher.com.

Now I'm torn.  I really want to go to next year's Gathering, but I also want to go to a sci-fi convention.  I don't think we can afford both.  sigh.  maybe we'll go to the Gathering again, and then go to another sci-fi con...

Anyway, I relish my list of owwies, since they definately affected my weekend,

Here's a thought I had earlier, while picking Mom up from work earlier.

I always knew that buddhists and neopagans had certain similarities, as well as differences, but it was tonight that I pinpointed the main one.  The goal for Buddhists is to become more in tune with the now,  to be aware and yet empty, so as to escape from the illusion of reality & reincarnation and someday achieve Nirvana; to escape the wheel of life.  The goal for Pagans is to become more in tune with the now, to celebrate and embrace life, and the cycles of the wheel.  It's like we both use many of the same tools, but the goals are totally opposite.  I wonder what buddhists make of that.

so I didn't exactly meet my daily writing promise today, but it's only 12:35; I missed it only by a little!

not that there's all that much to talk about, especially as tired as I am.  had a headache all day, which was only temporarily dulled by tylenol and coffee.  finally went to the gym, after 10 days being awol.  lucky me.  and since both Sam and I wanted to do individual rituals tomorrow night, we recorded the podcast tonight.  it was fun, but long!  we managed to gabble for a good hour, and I'll be lucky to do more than edit five minutes out; about what we need for a song, lol.  so it'll be a long one, but it was so interesting and fun, it was hard not to just keep talking even longer.

and this time I didn't mention anybody from LJ, lol.  so no worries there.  and we did discuss sex magick.  and pagan sexual ethics.  and polyamory.  and bob even contributed his ten bits (it was more than two, that's for sure), though I'll have to amplify everything he said, since he insisted on staying across the room from us.

doing the show notes should be interesting....

so now that I've had my revelation about congregationalists, I can move on to more interesting subjects.  Like me!

there's so much to contemplate tonight.  I've been listening to several podcasts tonight (lance & graal, wicked, paganliving, ATC, etc), and over and over again I keep thinking about the common themes.