Two pleasant surprises happened to me at the gym today; I know, fun at the gym?!?!?  Anyway, the first was that after my workout, I weighed myself; I've lost another ten pounds since last weigh in!  For me, that's amazing.  So far, over the past year I've lost 20 pounds, which is amazing for me.  The last time I lost that much weight.... was over ten years ago, not counting giving birth, lol.  So when I made my yearly weight loss goal, I was counting without the recent 10 lb loss, so I'm a lot closer than I thought I was, lol.

The last time weighed XXX (like I'm gonna tell you guys, ha!), we had just moved here, and I was maybe 2 months pregnant with my eldest.  Now she's six, and will be seven next summer.  Cool.

I went out earlier tonight, just for an hour or so.  The cafe had live music, sort of rock, sort of folk; I don't really know what to call it, other than good.  I was surprised, actually.  Almost ex never really liked live music, especially not the kind you got in coffee shops.  Now, I will agree that often the people who come in and play at cafes aren't always good, but after a while, it simply became a 'oh gods, music' thing, and we never went.  

Instead of shrinking away, I let myself enjoy the music, which was vibrant and entertaining, there were a lot of good vibes floating in the air, and I felt good about how I looked, which is a big bonus.  I thought about all the books I've been reading on making friends, and though I didn't leave my lonely comfort zone, I did watch the people around me, let myself bounce to the music (instead of worrying about what people would think) and reminded myself about details of body language, space and all sorts of things the books mentioned.  Lol, I didn't practise a lot, but I did a good job of people watching, and of keeping my own body language as open as I could.

I wasn't out for long; the coffeehouse in question closed shortly after 10 pm.  Still, it was a good night, and I'm feeling good.  G'night!

10I've been listening to them way too much, I realized today.  That and emo music.  I need something a tad more up beat, methinks.

I also found myself in a good mood today.  I was doing some grocery shopping, and I as I was walking down an aisle, a couple caught my eye.  I don't recall much of the woman, other than to notice she was there, but the guy kinda caught my attention.  Instantly I thought, now that's what I need to do, limit myself to checking out tall guys!  The silliness made me smile (or smirk, I'm sure), which this guy noticed, and he was blushing a little a having been checked out (in even the vague fashion I was doing it in) and standing a little straighter.  And I realized he wasn't recoiling in disgust, but was probably in fact now in a better mood himself.  Which improved my own mood again. 

So all I've had to do since then is remember the silliness, and the way my smile made someone happier, and I'm happy too.  I've even been grinning at home for no apparent reason.  

Oh, why tall guys?  Um, almost ex is relatively short (an inch taller than me), and so have most of the boys I fooled around with when I was younger.  So I'm thinking of trying a new 'type' on for size.   Wow, was there a dirty pun in that?  My brain is tired.

I didn't write as much as I wanted to today.  I woke up, got juice for the kids, and collapsed into bed again.  Almost ex got up soon after, though, and he dealt with the kids.  When I got up an hour later, they were gone, and I was alone without any coffee!  Gah.  I went back to bed soon enough and woke up three hours later.  That's when I went grocery shopping.

My only pet peeve of the day is that he bought the kids clothing, when he knows we're on a tight budget and I need more work clothes rather badly.  Sigh.  Oh well, next thursday I hopefully get paid.  *fingers crossed*

And after being distracted by lots of movies on tv, I finally managed to write a bit, but my wrist is hurting (mild carpal tunnel syndrome), so it's best if I stop before it turns into a major flare up.  Which means I also have to stop writing here, lol.  So g'night!