Well, I'm not flying so high today, lol.  Six hrs at work last night left me pretty sore and achy; I woke up still sore, but somehow I dragged my ass to the gym anyway.  I intended to do a quickie workout, and instead managed to spend a full hour there; I swear I don't know where the time goes.  And I held off from weighing myself again; experience has shown that to be a really bad idea, especially if I've gained any muscle mass.

I'm going to record my podcast this weekend; Bob's taking the girls up to visit with his mom while he and his dad redo the service at the local grocery store.  I admit I had a tiny niggle of worry over it; what newly single mom doesn't worry about kidnapping?  But I looked deep into myself, and I know it's just an irrational fear, brought on by general anxiety.  

He isn't an asshole, just... well, no longer in love.  Our separation so far has been almost completely amicable; I'm just the type to worry needlessly.  Really.  It's a significant part of my anxiety issues.

Anyway, I'll see about recording what will probably turn into a fairly long show, a combo of catching up on gossip, introducing topics, playing music, etc.  All things being equal, I hope to have something reasonable (and without too much cussing, lol) and uploaded by wednesday night.  Fingers crossed!

And on a final note, I'm debating with the idea of writing a short story each month, to keep my hand it.  It's really not enough to just do NaNo each year, then do nothing the rest of the time.  Though I should really be editing one of those... sigh.

Two pleasant surprises happened to me at the gym today; I know, fun at the gym?!?!?  Anyway, the first was that after my workout, I weighed myself; I've lost another ten pounds since last weigh in!  For me, that's amazing.  So far, over the past year I've lost 20 pounds, which is amazing for me.  The last time I lost that much weight.... was over ten years ago, not counting giving birth, lol.  So when I made my yearly weight loss goal, I was counting without the recent 10 lb loss, so I'm a lot closer than I thought I was, lol.

The last time weighed XXX (like I'm gonna tell you guys, ha!), we had just moved here, and I was maybe 2 months pregnant with my eldest.  Now she's six, and will be seven next summer.  Cool.

Let's see, I'm doing pretty good, the numbness/shock of my situation is still keeping me together.  Plus, of course, I've accepted the inevitablilty of what the hel happened.

I think I can summerize it pretty well too.  I like my sex romantic and my relationships friendly.  He likes his sex friendly & his relationships romantic.  It's probably been working against us for a long long time.

On to more interesting stuff.

I really need to do some prep work for nanowrimo.  Since I'm not going to do an outline, I should do some character sketches.  now i just have to force myself to do it.  Only a few weeks left, after all.

I also need to start hitting the gym big time.  It's october, I haven't met my weightloss goals for the year, guh.  I wanted to lose another 15 lbs. by Xmas.  the only way I'm going to do that is to start seriously working out now, because november I'll be focused on writing, which will spill into december, no doubt.  guh.

so we re-recorded show number 7 tonight.  yay!  I used a different program, so we'll see how it turns out.  We're also going to try it without background music, because the sound seems pretty good, though I'll have to try it first and see.  If it all goes together well, then we'll keep doing it.  If it doesn't seem to have that slightly polished feel, then we won't do it again, lol.

It will make the editing process a tad shorter though, which is always good.  Not having to fit in music will take at least twenty minutes off of the time.  now on to personal journal stuff
Well, that's pretty much it for now.  I really have to try and get back to journalling in the morning.  It's easier, somehow.   Oh!  and I'm writing again.  As in, story stuff, not journalizing.  Another interesting dream leading to a story, my standard method, lol.