let's see, how it's been going..

marriage, well, we're working on it.  at least he's willing to try.  we're going to see a marriage counsellor next wednesday.  fingers are crossed.  I've also been reading a zillion books on the subject, so some of that can help; tips are good, if they work.

bob rented a couple of video games, which has been amazingly good for both of us.  we get to sit down together, and play.  Or we get to enjoy the other's successes.  It's helped ease things immensely.

I'm also writing again.  lol, erotica, which is fitting, since I'm not getting sex anymore.  gotta have something.  I'm going to submerge my lust into my writing, and hopefully it'll be good, lol.  Plus, if I can actually get a sex scene written, I can email the lot of it to bob, see if it's any good.

otherwise, I'm teetering between hope and despair, which seems pretty normal for the situation.  I'm hoping we can fix this; if he's truly willing to work this out, we can.  that's the biggie, and we have no answers for that yet.  it's driving me up the wall, but I'm doing the best I can to be more hopeful and calm, cuz going crazy on his butt won't work, lol.