sometimes I think life is crap and then you die.  but the reality is, sometimes life is crap, but you still go on.  It gets better.

and like I told myself the other day, sometimes crap grows the best roses.

I didn't put it all in here, I don't know why, random paranoia probably.  We failed to secure the mortgage to buy the trailer we wanted; CMHC are a bunch of idiots.  'nuff said.  Now we're scrambling to find a place to live.  Right now rentals are very high.  As in, 300-500 dollars more than they were five years ago.  Gah.  Ex is trying to take the kids during my weekends since i have to work (duh) even when it makes just as much sense to have my mother watch them for me for a few hours.  He's being a real... pain about this.

So I'm stressed about living arrangements, the kids, dealing with an antagonistic ex and wondering how the hell things ever got this weird.  And then I remember the kundalini teacher warning us at a seminar *just* before Ex left me; kundalini can do terrible things to your life, mostly as a purge sort of thing.  

Gah.