I've been feeling really sad tonight, but I'm not sure why.  I got a sort of tight chest feeling, like I wanted to cry, but I just couldn't figure out the reason till now, as I write.  I guess the mood just sort of hit me after I realized how easy it would be to get a sh&t job I'd hate, and end up either quitting or being fired from.  Either I'm feeling upset that I'm looking at awful jobs, or I'm upset that I couldn't even keep something that blah.  It could be both.  I've lost other sh&t jobs before, and I don't like repeating a bad pattern.

I went in for an interiview at the assembly line thingy, and I really don't think I could do it.  It requires speed, lots of manual dexterity and endurance; I don't have those in large quantities.  I'm more of a steady, inspired worker, ya know?  And I suck at standing for hours; I can't shop with most people, because they move so slow, my hip starts to ache within half an hour.  Bleck.  I'm a mess.  I need to get into shape big time.  Like I didn't know that.

I need to go to the gym.  Tomorrow (seeing as it's close to midnight, and the gym's closed!)