I'm trying to get my damn nano novel done before new years, but it's beginning to feel like the great monster novel. I finally started writing it again, though it's been a real bitch, dragging cuz I've got a thing about finishing stuff. As in, I generally don't because I sabotage myself as a psychological protective measure; apparently, feeling good is 'bad'.

Anyways, I wrote a little bit last night, finished off a chapter, and just couldn't start on the next. Not a prob, it was 1:30 am, so I needed to sleep anyway. But today, as I tried to write it, I realied I had to add yet another chapter, just to be able to explain certain things, that would have seemed too contrived otherwise. Great. So instead of having two chapters left, now I have three. Not to mention the two chapters that I haven't written for earlier parts of the book; they're a bit of filler, so I skipped them. Right now I just need to finish the damn thing. Once that's done, I can always go back later and fill in the gaps.

I want to see the words The End (I'll delete them later), and know it's ready for people to read. As in, family and friends, since hah, like this thing is gonna see print!

Grr. Now that I've vented, maybe I'll finally be able to write.... if I don't, I'll do a 'dear character' letter here, and see if that gets the creative juices flowing.